FallingChinaDoll

With permission, you enter Captain Levi’s office, approach his desk as his eyes remain fixated on you. You stopped in front of him, standing firm, and waited for him to address you so that you may speak. Levi however, fixes you with a stare, starting with the only reason he can come up with as to explain your sudden arrival, “If this is about the need for more medical supplies, I’m aware, and no there isn’t currently anything I can do about it.” He sounds annoyed, and you can’t blame him, it was more than likely just another thing stressing out Levi Ackerman, which is why you had never brought it up once. You return a look to him, though yours is soft, understanding, it throws him off slightly. “That’s not what I came to talk about, sir.” your voice holds no hostility, though there is an edge of nervousness in it. Levi studies you for a bit when you’ve paused in your speech, making a gesture with his hand as if to say ‘get on with it’. You nod at him before taking a small breath,

Had this been a mistake? It had to have been, you never would have been able to picture yourself here of all places, holding a salute as commanding officer Erwin Smith gave an inspiring speech that fired up the rest of recruits, you more than likely would have been just as inspired had you not spaced out momentarily in the middle of it. Your mind was too busy debating your life choices, most people shied away from the Survey Corps, but here was your group, ready to charge forward into what could only ever be described as suicide missions. You let your eyes wander from the commander, surveying what little people held their ground, you knew they all had only selfish reasons as to why they stayed, after all, you did yourself. You joined the corps because you wanted to matter, in something. You knew you had a skill that could help those out in the battle field, you knew you were needed here, you could make a difference, but really it was all just so you could feel better about